Love One Another

Its amazing how often the lessons I have had at church seem to corolate so well with the struggles I'm having. Here are a couple of examples loving others, enduring to the end, and most of all forgivness. Anyone who has been in a simular situation to mine knows that it is sooo extremly hard not to become overwhelmed with bitter and unkind feelings. I have been struggling with alot lately. Especailly when I hear some of the things that the Ex's family has said about me since he left. It's so hard to hear those kinds of things, especailly when they only focus on me. It's frustrating and it makes me cry and there is NOTHING I can do about it but try my best not to do what they do. I feel like I have done my best to not talk about him on my blog and only talk about me. I feel that it's more mature and Christ like to share my feelings rather then my anger. One of the lessons we had recently really got me thinking about being the "bigger person" I hate being the bigger person it always feels like you lose. And in a worldly sense I guess you do. The thing I have learned about divorce in general besides the fact that everyone polarizes is that even those who are close to either person don't even know half of the story. So much goes on behind closed doors and it's really unfair to only listen to one side.

I really love learning about Joseph Smith what a great example of enduring to the end and forgivness. Not that I feel anywhere near as amazing as him but I like to compare some of my trials to his. I feel like it gives me a deeper look at what it must have been like. Now there is someone who in a worldly sense lost, and mostly due to the agency of others. I remember my mom telling me something that my great grandma told her once when she was feeling cheated for doing the right thing. My mom jokingly said that when she got to heaven she would get to go right in and that would be her reward. But my grandma turned to her and said you get your reward right here and now knowing that even if your treated unfairly or unkindly your are still willing to be kind back. WOW! I love that saying and I love my great grandma she is such a neat lady. I was thinking about what she said and on top that you also know that you did the right thing which is a reward in and of itself.

I guess you could say I added to my one goal this year, on top of doing everything I can to let Heavenly Father make more of me then I can of myself I want to do my best to truly love others. Which includes those who are unkind to me, that's the hard part. It's easy to show more love to friends, family and even strangers. The struggle is showing love towards those who have hurt us. It makes me think of my primary classes and how often they talk about being son's and daughter's of God. If a primary child can learn that so can I. Which means I need to treat people accordingly.