1 Month

I'm a lot more excited about posting this then I was about posting before and after pictures a month ago. It's so crazy it's already been a month since I had Colin! I'm really glad it's gone by as fast as it has, and a little shocked. The whole situation is MuCh less painful the farther away from it that I get. 

Because we were going to be out of town I had my 6 weeks Dr. appointment moved to this last week. They said that I lost 24 lbs which puts me just about what I started, yay! Just about everything fits (including my class ring) and it's so nice to be in my own clothes again. I'm about an inch off my "small/ tight" jeans from before but I'm not worried anymore. I have about 7 ish more pounds that I would like to loose the "ish" depends on the day. It would be less but I'm trying to get to 120-125 again and I was about 130+ when I started (bleh). 

This is the last photo I took before I had Colin and a photo from today. A much better before and after if you ask me.

Happy Birthday!

I had my 21st birthday on the 12th! My Mom and Dad took me to Carino's for lunch. My Mom asked me what we did last year and that's when I realized we went there for my birthday last year too. Haha, oh well Italian is one of my favorite kinds of food so it works. That's me and my Mama and our TaStY Ice Cream.

The End

Today was my day in court. I signed away my rights to baby Colin. I'm so glad that this is all done with. I had that lovely sick feeling in my stomach that I had when I had to go to the divorce lawyer Pow-wow and the day I placed Baby Colin. It's hard enough to deal with on a daily basis but it's even harder to deal with it in public. I was having the hardest time controling myself this morning. All I could think about was what I wanted and THIS was definately NOT it. But in the end that wasn't what mattered what mattered is Colin. I just couldn't live with him getting ANY less then what my parents gave me, no matter how "unfair" the situation was for me. It's just weird to think that it's all over. I guess in alot of ways I kind of don't know where to go from here. I'm just praying that I'll get a good job that can keep me busy. I like it when I have somthing to work on. And hair is nice because you get to serve others, it gets you out of the "ME" zone which is VERY helpful.

Can't Help Myself

I have posted ALOT of pictures of Baby Colin on facebook and here but a couple more can't 

 

hurt. I love these videos this is exactly how wonderful Baby Colin was. Such a calm sweet baby. My mom just had to get a peek at his little toes. Poor Baby he had little old man feet haha they were all wrinkly, the doctor said it was because he was "overcooked".