Ventilation

Can I just take a second to vent? That way I don't have to complain to those around me, well unless they read this I guess. I feel like I have been doing my best to not flat out complain lately, but right now I just need to get some stuff off my chest. Also don't bother giving advice if you feel you must comment stick to those of adoration and condolences on my "tough" life.

Our place here in Columbus is bigger BUT it has some of the weirdest kitchen cabinets, we don't even have a drawer that fits a stew pot, crockpot, cereal boxes (without being sideways) or our silverware.  It's also right on the borderline of ghetto. If you go north west the neighborhoods become nice and new and if you go south east it's the exact opposite and FAST. Our townhouse also has basically no overhead lights. Whoever came up with the bright (no pun intended) idea to have certain light switches that control outlets so you only have lamps in a room was an idiot I want to punch them in the face. The next place we go overhead lights with light switches are a must! I hate having lamps they are so annoying, and I don't want to put them on timers. 

I LOVE my children sooooo much, it literally makes me ache sometimes to think about it but DANG! The crying lately is seriously just more than I can handle. And of course I am the one who feels guilty. I have basically started leaving Macy in her bed for 20 ish minutes at a time off and on throughout the day because there is just NO pleasing her. She definitely has colic. And Davie has learned the bloody scream of death when he gets angry... Let's just say when he does it in my face and I am trying to talk to him my patience burns up almost instantly. He has also begun the whining, he has so much more longevity with his whining then I have patience.

And since I am being honest the last thing I have been irritated about is me. Whoever said acne starts and ends in your teens should die a slow painful death. The last couple of weeks have been ridiculous and it's so frustrating because there basically noting I can do about it. The other day I went to the Apple store without any makeup on and when I got there I could not believe how self conscious I felt! Let's just say I won't be doing that again for a while. 

Additionally I've been really irritated with myself for not losing baby weight too. This has been the worst so far which I guess is to be expected with a 3rd pregnancy/ baby but I was really hoping to do better. All the crying doesn't exactly help with my motivation to clean or organize the house, get ready or work out either. I don't know what it is about crying, but it just sucks the life right out of me. By the time nap time comes I just fall asleep, read or watch TV, there is no energy. Funny story, when I was younger I remember wondering why my parents always wanted us to go to bed so badly and thinking what they possibly could be doing that I couldn't be included... NOW I understand and the answer is EVERYTHING. Haha, being alone is golden, quiet is platinum.

 Lastly my hair is in the shedding stage so it's EVERYWHERE and I CANNOT control it! It drives me crazy, ugh!!!!! (all exclamation marks needed)

These are just some of the main issues I have been dealing with lately, but they make life so tough! There is a certain point at which I should be allowed to complain, otherwise my problems become denial and that's not helping anyone either. I promise to blog about my blessings and fun we have had lately next time, for now I just needed to complain and not feel guilty. The end.