Today was my day in court. I signed away my rights to baby Colin. I'm so glad that this is all done with. I had that lovely sick feeling in my stomach that I had when I had to go to the divorce lawyer Pow-wow and the day I placed Baby Colin. It's hard enough to deal with on a daily basis but it's even harder to deal with it in public. I was having the hardest time controling myself this morning. All I could think about was what I wanted and THIS was definately NOT it. But in the end that wasn't what mattered what mattered is Colin. I just couldn't live with him getting ANY less then what my parents gave me, no matter how "unfair" the situation was for me. It's just weird to think that it's all over. I guess in alot of ways I kind of don't know where to go from here. I'm just praying that I'll get a good job that can keep me busy. I like it when I have somthing to work on. And hair is nice because you get to serve others, it gets you out of the "ME" zone which is VERY helpful.
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
The End
Today was my day in court. I signed away my rights to baby Colin. I'm so glad that this is all done with. I had that lovely sick feeling in my stomach that I had when I had to go to the divorce lawyer Pow-wow and the day I placed Baby Colin. It's hard enough to deal with on a daily basis but it's even harder to deal with it in public. I was having the hardest time controling myself this morning. All I could think about was what I wanted and THIS was definately NOT it. But in the end that wasn't what mattered what mattered is Colin. I just couldn't live with him getting ANY less then what my parents gave me, no matter how "unfair" the situation was for me. It's just weird to think that it's all over. I guess in alot of ways I kind of don't know where to go from here. I'm just praying that I'll get a good job that can keep me busy. I like it when I have somthing to work on. And hair is nice because you get to serve others, it gets you out of the "ME" zone which is VERY helpful.
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God loves his children Kari, and he will bless you in so many different ways. As we all know, we just need to have faith in him and make it possible for him to help us. :)
Wow I sound preachy. Not trying to sound like that, but well... Just something that helps comfort me when I am down. Especially now, finding out that my Mom lost her job.
Life is so crazy. But, things all happen for a reason and I dont think any one of us will understand at the time, but if we can endure, and have a smile, it will be slightly easier.
Love you Kari. Cant wait till I see ya again!!!
I don't have anything to say except that I'm here and have been reading your blog! ((((HUG))))
OH Kari. YOu are so brave! Good luck with everything! You are in my prayers!
Okay, I know we haven't seen eachother in years, but I just wanted to say--you are amazing for what you did. I can't even imagine how hard that would be and you did it. Wow.
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